Between Love, Hypocrisy and Friendship

Define love. How to define? You tell me. Believe it or not, there is no precise definition for this four letter word.

I thought too great of this word. Too naive. Perhaps I'm ignorant. But ignorant is not bliss!

I believe in everything too easily. Not that I'm an idiot, but I choose to 'believe'.

I had learnt my lesson. An invaluable lesson. It left behind a beautiful memory and an ugly scar.

Between friendship and love, someone chose love. Between honesty and hypocrisy, the other one chose hypocrisy. Between friendship and hypocrisy, he chose hypocrisy.
I don't mind of being a specimen of love. At least, as sung by Beyonce, it was a beautiful nightmare.

I already felt very contented that Prince Charming had once loved Silly Boy. I believe, at that point of time, it was genuine.

At the end of the day, what matters most is that we had shared some precious moment together in the past.


*p/s: you know i will never hate you no matter what happened. all that i want is just honesty and your courage to confront me. don't feel ashamed . there is no right or wrong in a relationship. ironically, i see hypocrisy in love and friendship. five years down the road, if i happen to read back this post, i will definitely laugh at my innocent thought while reminiscing about our sweet moments. i believe you would too! i am and i will be the same Evillian that you have known.

Some thoughts

Being alone is better afterall...

A Dream to Cherish

I had a weird dream yesterday night. My dad found out that I am gay and accepted me as who I am. I was overly joyful and tears dropped freely as I hugged my dad. Alas! I woke up only to find it a dream. It was just a short-lived dream. How wonderful it would be if that was what happen in the reality? Unfortunately, it was just a dream to cherish.

In This World of Loneliness I See Your Face, I'm In Love With You!

Closed off from love, I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough and it was all in vain
Time starts to pass before you know it you're frozen

But something happened for the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground, found something true
And everyone's looking 'round, thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open
And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

Trying hard not to hear but they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater than the rush
That comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness I see your face
Yet everyone around me thinks that I'm going crazy
Maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open
And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

And it's draining all of me
Oh, they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars for everyone to see

I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

Memory

CORUS 1001- 241209

(I shall remember for years to come)

Welcome 2010!

It has been a year since I started this very blog. Time flies. Definitely, I have changed a lot in the past one year.

Had a great new year eve bash with a bunch of gay friends. Drank a lot yesterday night and really had a good time.

Welcome 2010! I hope it will be an interesting and exciting year ahead.

(p/s: Though we spent only a short time together, I really appreciate the every moment that you shared with me. I hope you feel the same. You mean a lot to me. Shall miss you dearly! Ti amo!)