Met a psychologist recently and the following is the excerpt from the talk:
"...The majority of people are heterosexual. So the heterosexuals think that they are the normal ones. So something that is out of the norm is abnormal. But, whatever it is, like i said, it is people's preference, what they like and what they don't like. I don't think so it's up to us, we cannot be judging other people. Let say your best friend and suddenly you found out that he is a gay, are you going to stop being his best friend simply because he is a gay? Are you going to discriminate him? Are you going to chuck him having been your best friend for how many years and then found out that he is actually a gay? Now, that's discrimination! It's just the same issue like Elizabeth Wong. Who are we to judge? It's people sexual preference. Everyone has their own rights. But, having said that, we must be careful with our sexual expression. Sexuality in our country is still very conservative. It's their right as long as they're not harming an individual or the society. ..."
I had a wonderful time listening to her thoughts. It was indeed an enlightening talk. Whether we are straight, gay, or bisexual, we are equal and do not deserve any kind of discrimination or prejudice. At the end of the day, what matters is that being who you really are. Love, regardless of sexuality, is not a crime.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Perak State Assembly emergency sitting
Pakatan Rakyat state assemblymen attending a state assembly meeting under a tree after they were denied entry to the State Secretariat building on Tuesday morning.
Walao! Like this also can ar?
Perak Pakatan Rakyat assemblymen attended an emergency sitting at a vacant lot under a tree on Tuesday morning, 3rd March.
Chronicle:
(11.20am) Nizar to seek audience with Sultan Azlan Shah to ask for dissolution of Perak state assembly as soon as the documents from Tuesday’s emergency sitting under a tree in a vacant lot is completed.
(11.15am) Nizar says three motions were passed during the Emergency sitting on Tuesday - motion of confidence on himself as the legal Perak MB; agreement to seek Royal consent for dissolution of state assembly; and the adoption of the suspension of MB Zambry Abdul Kadir and his Excos by the Rights and Privileges Committee.
(10:40am) At the High Court, Sivakumar’s lawyers withdraw from the case after Judicial Commissioner Ridwan Ibrahim rules that private lawyers have no locus standi and cannot represent the Speaker.
Ridwan says that under the Government Proceedings Act, the Speaker can only be represented by the state legal advisor, or lawyers appointed by the latter, because he is part of the state government.
Sivakumar’s lead counsel, constitutional expert Tommy Thomas, says they will await further instructions from the Speaker. He said they were refused speaking rights under Ridwan’s ruling.
(10:35am) Nizar proposes that the emergency sitting of the assembly be adjourned. Sivakumar adjourns.
(10:25am) Titi Serong rep Dr Khalil Idham says Nizar is the rightful mentri besar and wants him to continue. Canning assemblyman Wong Kah Woh says that Pakatan has ruled the state well since taking over last March.
Teja rep Chang Lih Kang proposes a motion asking for the dissolution of the state assembly to call for a new election.
Both motions are agreed to by all Pakatan reps.
(10:20am) After “doa selamat” prayers, the meeting commences with the hearing of the first motion from Titi Serong assemblyman Dr Khalil Idham Lim Abdullah.
He says the trust and support have been given to Nizar as mentri besar. Sivakumar asks for the motion to be debated.
(10:15am) Although allowed entry into the state secretariat building, Sivakumar did not go in. Attired in the official garb of the Speaker, he declares a vacant lot about 200m from the building as the venue for the emergency sitting.
(10:05am) Nizar gets into his car. Discussions going on between PAS, PKR and DAP assemblymen and Members of Parliament (MPs) on their next course of action. One MP is in the car with Nizar.
They are expected to head towards the DAP state headquarters where they might hold a press conference.
(10:00am) Pakatan assemblymen and Nizar not allowed into building, but police allow Sivakumar to enter. A policeman says, “YB tidak boleh masuk (Yang Berhormat is not allowed in).”
Pakatan supporters make a protective ring around their assemblymen so that they will not be chased away. Assemblymen start moving away however.
(9:45am) At the High Court, lead counsels for both sides are briefing the judge in chambers. They emerge from chambers at 10:17am to brief their legal teams.
(9:40am) Pakatan Rakyat assemblymen, including former mentri besar Datuk Seri Mohammad Nizar Jamaluddin, arrive at state secretariat building for emergency sitting of Assembly called by Sivakumar to vote on two motions related to the constitutional crisis in Perak.
Barisan Nasional supporters have lined up to prevent them from entering. Some pushing and shoving going on.
(9:00am) Federal Reserve Unit personnel have been deployed in front of state secretariat building, at least seven trucks being used to block main entrance. Police had already set up roadblocks on roads leading to the building earlier this morning.
A small crowd has gathered, comprising party members, lawyers, supporters and many members of the media.
(8:45am) Lawyers from both sides start arriving at Ipoh High Court in preparation for hearing of lawsuit filed by Perak Mentri Besar Datuk Dr Zambry Abdul Kadir against State Assembly Speaker V. Sivakumar.
Dr Zambry is seeking a court declaration that Sivakumar’s suspension of Dr Zambry and his six excos from the state assembly is unconstitutional.
(Source: The Star Online, 3rd Mac 2009, http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/3/3/nation/20090303085400&sec=nation)
All this happen because BN is using all dirty tactics to hold on to power. RULE OF LAW? SUPREMACY OF CONSTITUTION? SOVEREIGNTY OF STATE ASSEMBLY? Too sad...they had all vanished into thin air!
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Meeting up
Jason had been asking me out for several times but I always turn down his offer. Perhaps I was not ready and was worried too much.
Jen flew to KL on Wednesday and Aaron has just returned from India. Jason had some plans in mind to meet each other. But it never crosses my mind that one day later I will meet all of them together. It's too fast for it to become a reality. Jen messaged me the moment he touched down at KL. I was surprised coz I never give him my number. Anyway, I knew who gave it to him. Haha...
Jason was planning to meet Jen on Friday and he did ask me whether I am free that day. I didn't promise anything. Anyway, Jason didn't tell me much about his plans. I have been chatting with Jen almost everyday on MSN and asked him several times about Jason's plan. But both of us (or perhaps only me) seemed not to have anny clues about the 'meeting-up thingy'.
And finally on Thursday night I only knew that maybe Jason will meet up with Jen on Saturday. I went to KL city on Friday morning to settle some important matters and later in the afternoon I messaged Jen when I reached home. Suddenly I had the strong feeling of wanted to meet up with Jen and Jason. Hence, I texted Jen.
Me: Are u free tonight?
Jen: Yes. Hehe. Me with aaron now. Are you ok with it?
I was surprised. Hrmm...Aaron has reached KL? I didn't know about that but slowly I recalled Jason telling me one month ago about meeting up with Jen and Aaron. I didn't know that actually both Jen and Aaron knew each other. I asked Jen whether we can meet up for supper. Planned everything in that afternoon and informed Jason. I think he's surprised that I initiated the meeting. Haha... I was anxious and sent so many sms to make sure everything is ok.
Confirmed the venue and time, and I was all ready for the meeting. I would fetch Jen and Aaron at the LRT station. I planned for supper at Murni (hottest mamak in PJ) on 11.00pm. Jen and Aaron were staying in KL city and I do not know how to drive there. So, they took LRT and I would fetch them at the LRT station.
I was on my way to the LRT station when Jen texted me that they had reached. I arrived at the LRT station but could not see anyone of them. Messaged Jen but he didn't reply. I was worried. Called Jen and told him I was waiting for them. Finally I saw Jen and Aaron from afar.
Haha... I was so anxious. The idea of meeting them did not even cross my mind until that afternoon. And of course they were surprised that I asked them out for supper as I have been the one who always rejected the idea of meeting up. Anyway, Jen and Aaron were really nice. Aaron was chatty and kept talking till we reached Murni. Jen and Aaron did most of the talking and I was the more quiet one [as expected ;) ]. Jason was having company dinner and arrived late. I finally meet him in person after turning him down for so many times. (Jason...sorry ya...)
We talked about bloggers who we think is hot and good looking, movies, perfume, piercing, etc.
Chatted till around 1.ooam before we left. I was really happy to meet up with them. They're indeed a wonderful bunch of friends.
Haha... It was great knowing all of you. ;) And thanks for accepting me as your friend.
Jen flew to KL on Wednesday and Aaron has just returned from India. Jason had some plans in mind to meet each other. But it never crosses my mind that one day later I will meet all of them together. It's too fast for it to become a reality. Jen messaged me the moment he touched down at KL. I was surprised coz I never give him my number. Anyway, I knew who gave it to him. Haha...
Jason was planning to meet Jen on Friday and he did ask me whether I am free that day. I didn't promise anything. Anyway, Jason didn't tell me much about his plans. I have been chatting with Jen almost everyday on MSN and asked him several times about Jason's plan. But both of us (or perhaps only me) seemed not to have anny clues about the 'meeting-up thingy'.
And finally on Thursday night I only knew that maybe Jason will meet up with Jen on Saturday. I went to KL city on Friday morning to settle some important matters and later in the afternoon I messaged Jen when I reached home. Suddenly I had the strong feeling of wanted to meet up with Jen and Jason. Hence, I texted Jen.
Me: Are u free tonight?
Jen: Yes. Hehe. Me with aaron now. Are you ok with it?
I was surprised. Hrmm...Aaron has reached KL? I didn't know about that but slowly I recalled Jason telling me one month ago about meeting up with Jen and Aaron. I didn't know that actually both Jen and Aaron knew each other. I asked Jen whether we can meet up for supper. Planned everything in that afternoon and informed Jason. I think he's surprised that I initiated the meeting. Haha... I was anxious and sent so many sms to make sure everything is ok.
Confirmed the venue and time, and I was all ready for the meeting. I would fetch Jen and Aaron at the LRT station. I planned for supper at Murni (hottest mamak in PJ) on 11.00pm. Jen and Aaron were staying in KL city and I do not know how to drive there. So, they took LRT and I would fetch them at the LRT station.
I was on my way to the LRT station when Jen texted me that they had reached. I arrived at the LRT station but could not see anyone of them. Messaged Jen but he didn't reply. I was worried. Called Jen and told him I was waiting for them. Finally I saw Jen and Aaron from afar.
Haha... I was so anxious. The idea of meeting them did not even cross my mind until that afternoon. And of course they were surprised that I asked them out for supper as I have been the one who always rejected the idea of meeting up. Anyway, Jen and Aaron were really nice. Aaron was chatty and kept talking till we reached Murni. Jen and Aaron did most of the talking and I was the more quiet one [as expected ;) ]. Jason was having company dinner and arrived late. I finally meet him in person after turning him down for so many times. (Jason...sorry ya...)
We talked about bloggers who we think is hot and good looking, movies, perfume, piercing, etc.
Chatted till around 1.ooam before we left. I was really happy to meet up with them. They're indeed a wonderful bunch of friends.
Haha... It was great knowing all of you. ;) And thanks for accepting me as your friend.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Lonely Valentine
Woke up at 8.00am today as I was awakened by my bro. I walked to the living room and lazed at the sofa and eventually fell back to sleep.
12.00pm: Woke up (for the second time). Chat with a few online buddies before preparing to go out for lunch.
1.45pm: Suddenly I felt so lonely. All of my housemates (incl. my bro) were either dating or went back home. Most of my friends were spending the very romantic Valentine's Day with their beloved. And jz have a serious conflict with two of my closest coursemates few days ago. I was all alone without anyone accompanying me. Went for lunch alone at Station One Cafe in Jaya One. I was green with envy when I saw many couples having their romantic lunch there. I really felt so lonely at that moment. Anyway, had a great lunch of fish and chips, sundae, and white coffee.
3.00pm: Shopped at Digital Mall. Has always wanted to buy a new webcam as the old one is no longer functioning. Bought a webcam and also a cooling pad. Again, I saw couples all over the place. I wondered if why I'm so lonely at this very special day. I have no one at all to go out with. Pathetic and lonely!!
4.00pm: Back at home. Chat with Jen on msn and tried my new webcam. Cammed with him for hours till dinner time.
7.00pm: Logged off at msn. Googling and facebook-ing till 8.00pm. Had a quick bath and off to dinner. Again, I was alone.
8.45pm: Since I was alone, I decided to drive thru KFC. It was a long queue today. I guess most of the people who were queuing up were like me, ALONE. Waited for nearly 20 minutes before my turn.
9.20pm: Reached home and had my KFC dinner alone. No one was at home. So quiet!!
10.10pm: Writing this post.
12.00pm: Woke up (for the second time). Chat with a few online buddies before preparing to go out for lunch.
1.45pm: Suddenly I felt so lonely. All of my housemates (incl. my bro) were either dating or went back home. Most of my friends were spending the very romantic Valentine's Day with their beloved. And jz have a serious conflict with two of my closest coursemates few days ago. I was all alone without anyone accompanying me. Went for lunch alone at Station One Cafe in Jaya One. I was green with envy when I saw many couples having their romantic lunch there. I really felt so lonely at that moment. Anyway, had a great lunch of fish and chips, sundae, and white coffee.
3.00pm: Shopped at Digital Mall. Has always wanted to buy a new webcam as the old one is no longer functioning. Bought a webcam and also a cooling pad. Again, I saw couples all over the place. I wondered if why I'm so lonely at this very special day. I have no one at all to go out with. Pathetic and lonely!!
4.00pm: Back at home. Chat with Jen on msn and tried my new webcam. Cammed with him for hours till dinner time.
7.00pm: Logged off at msn. Googling and facebook-ing till 8.00pm. Had a quick bath and off to dinner. Again, I was alone.
8.45pm: Since I was alone, I decided to drive thru KFC. It was a long queue today. I guess most of the people who were queuing up were like me, ALONE. Waited for nearly 20 minutes before my turn.
9.20pm: Reached home and had my KFC dinner alone. No one was at home. So quiet!!
10.10pm: Writing this post.
Feel so lonely especially when today is Valentine's Day. Haiz... another reminder that I'm still single. Going to be 22 soon but have yet to celebrate V Day. Hope and pray that at the same day next year I am no longer alone! The saddest thing is being lonely in such a big world on Valentine's Day.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Quotes: Self reflection
“It's a lot easier being black than gay. At least if you're black you don't have to tell your parents.” Judy Carter quotes (American Actress, Comedian and motivational speaker)
“Every gay and lesbian person who has been lucky enough to survive the turmoil of growing up is a survivor. Survivors always have an obligation to those who will face the same challenges.”
Bob Paris quotes
“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”
Steve Jobs quotes (American Entrepreneur Apple co-Founder, b.1955)
“That's my advice to all homosexuals, whether they're in the Boy Scouts, or in the Army or in high school: Shut up, don't tell anybody what you do, your life will be a lot easier.”
Bill O'Reilly quotes (Commentator, columnist, author. Born in Levittown, New York)
“It is deplorable that homosexual persons have been and are the object of violent malice in speech or in action. Such treatment deserves condemnation from the church's pastors wherever it occurs... The intrinsic dignity of each person must always be respected in work, in action and in law.” Joseph Ratzinger quotes
“Although the particular inclination of the homosexual person is not a sin, it is a more or less strong tendency ordered to an intrinsic moral evil, and thus the inclination itself must be seen as an objective disorder.” Joseph Ratzinger quotes
“Every gay and lesbian person who has been lucky enough to survive the turmoil of growing up is a survivor. Survivors always have an obligation to those who will face the same challenges.”
Bob Paris quotes
“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”
Steve Jobs quotes (American Entrepreneur Apple co-Founder, b.1955)
“That's my advice to all homosexuals, whether they're in the Boy Scouts, or in the Army or in high school: Shut up, don't tell anybody what you do, your life will be a lot easier.”
Bill O'Reilly quotes (Commentator, columnist, author. Born in Levittown, New York)
“It is deplorable that homosexual persons have been and are the object of violent malice in speech or in action. Such treatment deserves condemnation from the church's pastors wherever it occurs... The intrinsic dignity of each person must always be respected in work, in action and in law.” Joseph Ratzinger quotes
“Although the particular inclination of the homosexual person is not a sin, it is a more or less strong tendency ordered to an intrinsic moral evil, and thus the inclination itself must be seen as an objective disorder.” Joseph Ratzinger quotes
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Congratulation!
Aha! Today I went to cut my hair again. It is barely one month yet. I think I have a strange addiction of going to salon. :) I went back to my hairstylist, Tom at Hair Atelier. He's really good at doing my hair. The last cut at Kimarie was horrible and I will never go back there again.
Tom has been promoted to Creative Stylist and now I have to pay RM45 instead of RM33. Congrats ya, Tom!
He did a great job on my hair today and my new hairstyle brightens my day! Haha...
Again, well done! ;)
Tom has been promoted to Creative Stylist and now I have to pay RM45 instead of RM33. Congrats ya, Tom!
He did a great job on my hair today and my new hairstyle brightens my day! Haha...
Again, well done! ;)
Monday, February 2, 2009
Revelation
Lately I'm wondering of the question whether it's a sin being gay and whether it's my choice or am I innately gay. A lot of bloggers have discussed on this issue before. Anyway, I'm writing this as i feel the urge to do so. I will not touch much on the issue but more will be focussed on my past, present, and future.
I begin to discover that I actually like guys since I was in my teenage years. I still remember that I used to keep a scrap book where I would paste pictures of half naked guys which I cut from magazines and newspapers. I enjoyed looking at those pictures and getting hard on. While my friends always talk about the hot chicks in school, I never join them. My friends are so crazy about footballs and basketballs while I don't even like watching football matches (except for World Cup... but i like cute footballers). I always mixed well with the gals and are close to them especially when I was in upper secondary.
I like shopping very much and I bet you can hardly find guys who do so. I can happily go shopping with girls and they always ask for my opinion bout their dresses. I can wait for them while they shop and of course they are very willing give comments when I shop for clothes. Unlike my many other male friends, I'm willing to spent lavishly on what I wear and what I eat. I always take good care of my skin. I even spent hundreds of ringgit to seek treatment from dermatologist during my acne outbreak when I was in Form 5 (of course it was my mum who was paying).
I still remember vividly how I enjoy PE (physical education i.e. sport) class as I got to see my handsome classmates changing for sports, that's when my eyes enjoy browsing at my naked male classmates. There was also one time when my close friend play with me and hugged me tightly from behind. I pretended to struggle though I actually like him hugging me. He is very handsome and I like him very much. But too sad he is straight and already had a girlfriend at that time. We seldom meet now as we go to different university now.
Though I am a horny guy at times, I only started watching gay porn when I was 18. Haha...shock ya! I think all these while my behaviour and character do somehow show indication that I am gay. I don't have any problem admitting to myself that I am gay. But I am not ready to come out yet. Still hiding in the closet. I think this is due to the stigma attached to being gay. Prejudice and discrimination against gay are reflected in the stereotypes of members of the gay community. I believe many of you will agree with me that gay still encounter extensive prejudice and discrimination because of their sexual orientation. Verbal harassment being the most common form. I fear of coming out because I afraid my family and friends will reject me for being who I am. I truly know that hiding my real identity would somehow has some psychological effect on myself as I have to suppress myself and try to act straight. But what to do? Anyway, I have been trying to know more about the gay community and get in touch with those who have gone through the process of coming out as I know later in future I will join them and be proud of being who I am. For now, I can only pray for the best!
(Sometimes, I feel suffer when I think of myself as gay. I feel really lonely at times. Seeing that most of my straight friends having romantic relationships reminds me of how lonely I am. I do hope one day in the future the society will change and accept people like us.)
I begin to discover that I actually like guys since I was in my teenage years. I still remember that I used to keep a scrap book where I would paste pictures of half naked guys which I cut from magazines and newspapers. I enjoyed looking at those pictures and getting hard on. While my friends always talk about the hot chicks in school, I never join them. My friends are so crazy about footballs and basketballs while I don't even like watching football matches (except for World Cup... but i like cute footballers). I always mixed well with the gals and are close to them especially when I was in upper secondary.
I like shopping very much and I bet you can hardly find guys who do so. I can happily go shopping with girls and they always ask for my opinion bout their dresses. I can wait for them while they shop and of course they are very willing give comments when I shop for clothes. Unlike my many other male friends, I'm willing to spent lavishly on what I wear and what I eat. I always take good care of my skin. I even spent hundreds of ringgit to seek treatment from dermatologist during my acne outbreak when I was in Form 5 (of course it was my mum who was paying).
I still remember vividly how I enjoy PE (physical education i.e. sport) class as I got to see my handsome classmates changing for sports, that's when my eyes enjoy browsing at my naked male classmates. There was also one time when my close friend play with me and hugged me tightly from behind. I pretended to struggle though I actually like him hugging me. He is very handsome and I like him very much. But too sad he is straight and already had a girlfriend at that time. We seldom meet now as we go to different university now.
Though I am a horny guy at times, I only started watching gay porn when I was 18. Haha...shock ya! I think all these while my behaviour and character do somehow show indication that I am gay. I don't have any problem admitting to myself that I am gay. But I am not ready to come out yet. Still hiding in the closet. I think this is due to the stigma attached to being gay. Prejudice and discrimination against gay are reflected in the stereotypes of members of the gay community. I believe many of you will agree with me that gay still encounter extensive prejudice and discrimination because of their sexual orientation. Verbal harassment being the most common form. I fear of coming out because I afraid my family and friends will reject me for being who I am. I truly know that hiding my real identity would somehow has some psychological effect on myself as I have to suppress myself and try to act straight. But what to do? Anyway, I have been trying to know more about the gay community and get in touch with those who have gone through the process of coming out as I know later in future I will join them and be proud of being who I am. For now, I can only pray for the best!
(Sometimes, I feel suffer when I think of myself as gay. I feel really lonely at times. Seeing that most of my straight friends having romantic relationships reminds me of how lonely I am. I do hope one day in the future the society will change and accept people like us.)
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